Personally, I don’t hate Morrissey. I am far from the fan I was when I was younger, but what I feel is far from hatred.
I first got wind of this Morrissey fellow back in late 2001, when I saw a special on Swedish tv about him and the Smiths and their devoted fans. I checked my local record shops for any cds, but to no avail. A year later I heard There Is A Light and my interest picked up again. After that I borrowed whatever they had at the public library and soon became a big fan.
My fandom had different peaks. 2003, 2004-2006, 2009-2012, and then a sort of culmination in connection with the Autobiography book signing in the fall of 2013. After that it slowly started to wane and the quality of his music, in my opinion, as well. His behavior and all the drama throughout the 2010’s and beyond also made it harder. I still thought of myself as a fan, though, up until recently.
I still immensely appreciate what he’s meant to me, and some of the albums he’s made are etched into my heart for life, but I just can’t relate to him anymore, the way I did before. I can definitely relate to the
themes he’s singing about, but it’s somehow harder to relate to the way he
expresses these themes. The way he presents them and himself in his lyrics. I somehow feel that he’s been writing the same song since 1983. There’s hardly any growth, development or any deepening of the themes, sentiments or his ways of expression. If anything, Moz himself has gotten lazier and more shallow. Have we grown apart? Maybe.
I’ve been a huge nerd when it comes to music ever since I was a small child, so there’s always been a ton of other bands and artists and genres for me to obsess over, even during my peak Moz fan periods, and I always discover something new. My latest discovery, by the way, is
Night in Athens, an East London, by way of Greece, cold wave artist. Super cool. And my roster of old dependables, the music that at the end of the day means the most to me, is still strong, despite Moz being put on the bench.
So why do I come here? Still? To this abusive, psychotic, hilarious place dedicated to an artist I don’t listen all that much to anymore? Like someone said, places like these are addictive. And I’m not on Facebook or Twitter, so here’s where I come to shoot the shit. And I don’t think there’s another artist I’ve listened to as much as I have listened to Moz. And he still interests me. And he frustrates me. So much. I’ve dedicated so much time, emotion, money and energy to this man, so completely quitting him is probably not a possibility.
Quitting Moz Solo, however, should be put into consideration.
Any way. This was my (extremely long-winded) contribution. I was simply thinking out loud.