Had another nap and dreamt I went through a short cut between two houses and a middle aged, white male owner engaged me to find out what I was up to, and then his family came out of the woodwork. They had three large friendly dogs. I began frequenting their house, and there was a light skinned young man of a Middle Eastern bloodline who took an interest in me and would come by and flirt with me, gradually forming a physical, erotic relationship, though casual, and eventually I warmed up to him to the point I was anticipating his next visit with the idea of fellating him in mind for the first time, but before he arrived, two of my female neighbours opened my door, surprised it was unlocked, and I felt sedated, drugged, and then they were gone and the young man visited, but we separated after some navigating through different doors and me finding my keys in my sweatpants pocket to let us back in, but when I later went to join him in a room, he had two middle aged homeless men with him, one white and one maybe Latino and half white. They told me they’d been drugging my food to sedate me. There was a cat who belonged to the owners of the house, and a woman who suddenly was part of the group in the room, a middle aged white woman, said “I’m sorry your cat has to see this.”, and then I was alone with the three men again in that small room. I spoke and one of them said he didn’t like my tone of voice, and I squeezed the burliest man in the room, the Latino mix’s hands, as I said “I’m angry.”, and then I bolted out of the room and found the sidewalk had black rigid bars making it impossible to head in the direction I meant to, so I tried to walk in the opposite direction, and a group of young adults of about 7 or 8 men and one Latina woman who was naked above her waistline hovered around me curious. I told the woman that homeless people had taken over my apartment and were drugging my food. They weren’t interested enough to stay with me and filtered away to go wherever they were headed. I guess I woke up then, to voices chatting and a little barking dog’s voice streaming in through the window. As I’ve been typing this the chest sore has been slightly aching. Morrissey sings By The Time I Get To Where I’m Going in my head. I think I’ve been sleeping so much lately because my body has been trying to fight off what the biopsy examination didn’t detect. I’m glad to be awake with no shady lover colonizing my apartment with homeless men who think it’s right to drug me and hijack what I possess the keys to for themselves. I noticed that I really did look like a frail old lady in the selfie I posted here yesterday. Oh well, things could be worse. A lot worse. I feel pretty good, though hunched over from sitting in my recliner so much. I hear a crow cawing. People outside my window have dispersed I guess as I don’t hear their verbal diarrhea anymore. Someone I see around often said to me last evening “I just want to be a dummy.”. He repeated the statement a few times. We’d been loosely conversing and he didn’t seem keen on understanding the gist of what I had said, being satisfied with its meaning remaining vague and rootless. I found his words to be glib and platitudinous. We hugged twice and it didn’t feel reassuring. Rather it confirmed his statement that he just wants to be a dummy, at least when it comes to deciphering how others would like to be treated. He doesn’t treat himself very well, so I guess that’s the standard he applies to the rest of us. The chest sore has stopped aching again.